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Without honesty there can be no trust.........Without trust there is no relationship.
I have found an honest and trusting man who has been in my life or I in his life for over 18 months now. We are in a 24/7 relationship....Just decided to leave what I have written in the past up...It reminds me too of who I am.
[COLOR darkblue][/COLOR]*** First off what the heck is going on and so many guys having to lie? This lifestyle is about trust and honesty...so be honest right up front about maritial status...age...what ever.. just tell the truth!! Why is so hard for so many ment????? ***[COLOR darkblue][/COLOR]
In September 2007 I had one of the greatest times at a play party in Sacramento…in October my life took a turn, that made me question so many things in myself & my life, that I stepped away from the lifestyle that I thought had completed me……I never truly left the lifestyle, for it burned in my heart, I am very passionate about it, yet, I could not bring myself to return to it on a personal level….i had so many questions of myself left unanswered that I didn’t know I had. Now, 5 years later, a new turn has happened and once again a newlife has begun for me. I feel better of who I am and where I am going. I miss a lot of what the lifestyle has taught me and I know that there is a Dom out there that will appreciate the gift of submissiveness that I have to offer. I hope to feel again what I had felt before.
My views of the lifestyle hasn’t changed over the years, it still remains strong in my heart and soul…I was trained well and what was taught to me 12 years ago, is the way I feel it should be today. (In ALL lifestyles); Respect, Honesty, Communication, Trust, Honor, Love, Silence and Noise….so many things.
So many are under the perception of what a D/s life should be like…no one can dictate how it should be; for what a Dom and their submissive decide will be what their lifestyle is between them, no two will be alike. It’s really simple, yet still to this day, after 12 years; people will still say that is not how it is suppose to be…
Who am i? i am one that cares about many;family and friends, i have learned much over the years about love and losing loved ones.
i am NOT a player, i am not into poly relationships. i will only serve one and expect the same in return. i shall be whomever the one that captures my heart trains me to be what we both need and without losing who i am. He will know my needs and wants and desires. He will know when i need to be disciplined or held. He will understand the need to communicate with each other either by calls, emails or even text messages during the day. Those special little things just add to the relationship. In time, i will be able to know what he needs, attend to those needs, make him smile....i will know in my heart when i have pleased him and i will know by the look in his eyes how he feels.
Here is what i wrote years ago not much has changed about my philosophy.
You had come to know me as "newlifeforme. As time went on and i learned more, my desires expanded. i am no longer new to the life.. but now i am new to the desires that this lifestyle has to offer. I am exploring and have discovered some things so deep inside of me that were kept hidden… something’s that had been missing for years I am working on that part of my life still and not sure exactly which direction it will take me.
Communication is the key to this lifestyle... Communicate..Communicate and communicate more. Say what you mean, and mean what you say. Don't leave me hanging...you expect and will get a lot out of me, all i ask is true communication in return. i cannot read minds, i do not know what is going on if you do not tell me. i want the truth even if you think i can`t handle it..say it!! Don`t lie to me.. don`t deceive me;
.just tell me what you are thinking. It isn’t a hard thing to do. When at a distance, it is harder especially when communication is not utilized as promised. We have no other means of communication but this media and the phone. If a relationship looks promising i wish to know right away.. and communication daily is essential to know this. You want to control me? then get to know me
i am seeking one to grow with...to share times together with...to have fun with...LDR are hard and need a lot of trust and communication to find out what each other wants....it is easy to get carried away from life and just throw everything into each other and not breath...step back and breath...be honest...what do you really want? i'm not looking for playmates...i'm looking for something real and honest...something lasting.....it will take time...but they say...good things come to those who wait. i was willing to try poly once.. it was a bad experience and i will not even consider it. so if you are poly minded do not even entertain the thought that you can change me. It just isn’t going to happen.
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My Ideal Person:
My Ideal Person: I have explored the Switching side a little bit and have found that i enjoyed both sides, for a little while. But i am and always will be a submissive. I will not be a Domme so if that is what you are looking for,i wish you luck. i am seeking a strong Dom. One that knows who he is, can take control, and if he likes to switch on occassion, fine, if not,i understand. switching is not something i HAVE to have in a relationship. But, be known that the short time i did switch, opened up my eyes a little bit more to a Doms responsibility.
Please do not make promises to me that you aren't willing to keep....say what you mean...go slow..be for real... know where you are at before you pursue one and end up hurting this soul yet once more.
Giving the gift of submission is is just that..it’s a gift…it is not one I plan to give up easily……but when I decide, i give it well. i'm not a weekender sub, nor one for just online. Once a Master/Dom has captured my heart, i shall give to him 24/7 together or apart. This life is not one to live in lies. Total honesty is a must on both ends. Communication and trust is a must. So, i wish to go slow...take some time.. get to really know someone..trust is hard for me sometimes... i have been promised lots of things before so i apologize ahead of time if i appear a little stand offish, but i know that nothing will happen overnight. . i live in Northern Nevada, the beauty of the mountains surround me, I have no desire to move away.
Before I stepped back 5 years ago, the previous seven years i had seeked for the one to take me all (vanilla first then as a sub), good and bad. i thought i had found the one to serve. i would even say i was close another time, but as good as they felt, it was not meant to be. i take these times as lessons and growth. i look at my years as a training time for me. i had both good and bad experiences with Doms, vanilla and supposedly Doms. i learned from each one, i grew from each one...Perhaps they are the reason i decided to try switching.. to take some control..many say they were not surprised that i made that choice, but as i said, i am a submissive.
For the one Dom that wanted to see my potential realized and revealed for all to see its force, its flight, and its beauty, i thank you Sir and shall forever hold you in my heart. You gave me flight, watched me soar been there when i crashed and helped me mend my wings. You sent me off to fly again, and I soar more graceful than ever before. You will always be very dear and near to my heart.[/B
The one Dom in my life that i had just spoke about was my former Dom from years ago, and who remained my friend, confidant, teacher..... SageAlpha....his passing on May 14, 2006 has left its mark, even to this day...i shall forever remember the lessons he taught me..his words still ring in my head..i know he shall be watching me fly from above now...and perhaps i shall feel his wings grace my cheek
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